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the best update

So so much has happened in the last month since I updated. I do have the best update ever to follow the worst one I've had so far. On January 18, 2010 at 10:10 am the light of my life was born. Lillian Hazel Fulop 6 lbs 14 oz 20.75 in. I knew I would love her when she came, but now that she's here that feels like such an understatement. My life is forever blessed with this beautiful baby girl. I could never ask for anything more because she's all I've wanted. I've really been enjoying all of my time with her. We're never apart (which so far, I really don't mind) and we have fun times and snuggle times. I really can't stand the thought of going back to work ever again, especially to McDonalds where my 50 hour plus work weeks will take away so much of my time with my Lily. Adam and I have been trying to figure out the whole day care situation, which is definitely not easy. It would definitely be so much nicer and so much easier if we had family around here. I feel like so few people can be trusted with my daughter and the few people I do trust aren't around here or have jobs too that take up a lot of time. What to do what to do. We wanted Adam to go down to part time and that would help, because that is never going to be an option for me as a first assistant. That plan isn't panning out either though. It's a scary situation, especially considered we have to have a plan set in the next 4 weeks. I'm scared with not being here and being at work that I'm going to miss many important moments with Lily. Her first laugh, the first time she crawls, her first word, the first time she sits up on her own... and there are so many more firsts down the road that I may never be a part of. It makes me so upset. I just want to be here with her and make sure she's always well taken care of. How do other parents do it? I have no idea.
Lily is so super cute. Everyone who talked to me when I was pregnant knew I was a little scared at the thought of having an ugly baby... but oh no. She's so incredibly gorgeous. Which is saying so very much because most people have said she looks like me. I see me and Adam in her, which I love. She is so precious, I don't think I'll ever stop running out of great things to say about her. I thank God for her everyday of my life now and I make sure everyday to tell this sweet little girl of mine how much I love her and am blessed to have her. I believe that is very important even as a newborn for her to know. Adam thinks I'm crazy sometimes I'm sure because I already sing the alphabet to Lily and read her books and practice parts of her face and hands with her. She's going to be so smart, people can already tell how strong she is. She's just amazing!! Ok, so that's my best update so far... My Lily is here and doing so well. Thank you everyone for years of faith and support.. Thank you Adam and Thank you God for finally... our family expansion.

Heaven's newest angel

The new year didn't start out quite like we hoped. Grandma Fulop passed away Tuesday January 5th at 7:55 am. We knew it was coming, but we still hoped and had faith that she had some time left. Adam has gone to Toledo to be with his family and help out with what he can until the funeral. I feel bad that I can't be there, but with the baby it's not easy and on top of that McDonalds won't give me the time off because they do not recognize my spouse's family as my family. It's so ridiculous that I can't even continue talking about it because I'll anger myself.
On a bright note, somebody is being considerate enough to let me have friday off so tomorrow is my last day at work until my maternity leave ends in March. Oh sweet goodness. I'm so excited... baby coming and no mcdonalds for 9 weeks.
I'm missing Adam so much but I'm really thankful that my mom has been here to help and do so much for me. I'm a very blessed woman!!!!

officially a new year

So it's 2010 officially and it makes this baby business that much closer. I can't wait to be off of work and to get to meet my Lily. It's hard being on your feet for 8 or more hours a day getting your butt kicked at work, running around like a crazy person cuz you work with a lot of idiots and people just don't stop coming. I only have one more week, but I just don't know if I can take it. My body is beginning to turn on me and just tell me no. Few people seem to really understand this. It takes everything I have not to stand around crying because everything hurts so bad. 6 more work days... 6 more work days. Then I'll have new things to complain about.
Today the Christmas decorations should be coming down. Maybe I'll feel like things around the house are more prepared. I just need a certain someone to bring all the tubs up from the basement so that I can get stuff taken care of. Then the giraffes will come back out, but who knows how long even those will last because once my baby comes and is mobile, my giraffes will be in trouble.
I've decided that for 2010 I'm going to try to be a more positive person again. Once upon a time I was fun and funny and it took a lot to get me down. I went to Galesburg and that all changed, but I don't want the new year to be like the last one. There is so much to look forward to and with work, I guess for now I'll try to remember that nothing at McDonalds ever changes for the better so I should just deal with it and move on remembering that there are more important things out there. I have high hopes for 2010, after all, it's going to be starting out pretty early with the most fabulous day of my entire life.